Reading For Wisdom & Redemption In 2020

What books did you read in 2020 that you’d recommend? Here’s my Top 10 (& 20, &30, and more) for books that helped me make more sense of 2020, for redeeming it, and enjoying it.

The year 2020, for me started off in wonder, anticipation and joy. The first eight weeks included preparation for and the experience of the visiting Y’s and sacred sites in the Holy Land with the YMCA OnPrinciple cohort.

Upon returning, the rumblings of the COVID pandemic could no longer be ignored, and within weeks we were in lockdown, quarantined at home, facing unprecedented uncertainties.

My vocation, my work with the YMCA, and my family situation gave me strategic time to read. Three themes intersected: how to strengthen the Christian presence of the YMCA, how to do this in a VUCA (volatile, uncertain, complex, ambiguous) reality with the pandemic and economic disruption, amidst resurgence of overdue racial inequity protests across the country. All this hardship exacerbated by the outrageous, slanderous, inflammatory politic rhetoric by irresponsible power-mongers.

How did we get here, what is next? Christianly? Racially? Politically? Morally? Economically? Religious & Spiritually? For the YMCA? For the Church?

Based on material I had been reading for years, and shaped by timely recommendations of trusted friends, here is my reading list for 2020, in my striving to gain wisdom and nurture redemption in our chaotic, dangerous, yet beautiful world.

I’d be glad for more recommendations of what to read in 2021.

Tim’s 2020 Top Ten Books


( * = unfinished / + = reread portions annually)

God’s Gamble, by Gil Bailie

Revolutionary theology integrating Christian reflections of Rene Girard for our culture and mimetic realities.

Jesus and the Disinherited, by Howard Thurman

Raw, candid, wise, hopeful meditations by a black preacher for his black congregation, a world leader writing out how to survive as a black Christian in early 20th century America.

The Protestant Era, by Paul Tillich

What’s going on with the withering of Protestant Christianity in America? Tillich asks tough questions, he digs deep into the beliefs and practices which are shaping our seeming decline.

New Creation As Metropolis, by Gibson Winter

A hopeful and grounded vision of how Christians in the church can be participants in the flourishing of their community.

A Better Hope, by Stanley Hauerwas

Provocative; a unique, refreshing yet disturbing take on how Christians can embody our Lord Jesus in the dark realities of this American culture.

Christianity and Power Politics, by Reinhold Niebuhr

Brilliant insights of the early 20th century that still resonate today for how Christians leverage their power for the gospel and their community. Shaped by the horrors of the Great War and emerging Nazism, this is crucial content that needs to be re-engaged and adapted for us now.

The Fire Next Time, by James Baldwin

Poetic, empathetic, brutally honest, searching, yearning, wounded; a hard look at reality for a talented black man in a Christian country.

Go Set A Watchman, by Harper Lee

It’s connected with the storyline of To Kill A Mockingbird, but it stands on its own. A fascinating yet rough read, if you let it be, for upending assumptions and opening up disturbing realities about oneself.

Roots, by Alex Haley

I’ll never be the same. Literal tears stain the pages of my book.

The Lemon Tree, by Sandy Tolan

A history for which I know to little, and from what I do think I know, I now know reality is much more complex, painful, and yet hopeful. A genuinely unique story, and a very good one.

Bonus (& reread): The Source, James Michener

My third time reading it, this time to prepare for my trip to the Holy Land again, this tine with the YMCA. The storyline, the scope of the ages, the humanity, the cultures – while there is much to critique, it does provide a humbling yet awe inspiring take on our humanity, our faith, and our future.

Out of the 60+ books I read this year (or reread, or started, finished, or read partially) here’s the second half of the top twenty:

Strategic Doing, by Ed Morrison – practical system for community collaboration, especially in a VUCA world; rich, thoughtful, humane, successful content.

Letters from the Desert, by Carlos Caretto – spiritual reflections from a real man in the real world, with a European perspective in the north African wilderness.

*A Palestinian Cry for Reconciliation, by Naim Stifan Ateek – passionate liberation theology of Christian leaders striving against impossible odds to do God’s will with love towards their enemies and justice for all.

The Death of Race, by Brian Bantum – the personal and probing theologizing opens up for me ways that race and Christianity are intimately intertwined in America, of ways forward, in Christ.

*The Kingdom of God in America, by Reinhold Niebuhr – a step back into time, when American Christian theologians work with the Church Fathers, Greek philosophers, European theologians, to address our pragmatic US political and religious culture, shaped deeply by the Great War, the Great Depression, and the aftershocks of the Enlightenment- which is still the case in 2020, just more complicated.

*Christianity and Civilisation, by Emil Brunner – a fresh, rejuvenating European take on ways Christendom has shaped our world, and how to move forward; a fan of the YMCA and one who eloquently writes out the implicit beliefs of the Y.

*The End of History and The Last Man, by Franics Fukuyama – still relevant, still insightful, still necessary reading to make sense of 2020.

Be The Bridge, by Latasha Morrison – a crucial Christian contribution to the personal and cultural work of racial reconciliation; it is personal, practical, hopeful.

*For The Life of the World, by Alexander Schnemamm – an American Russian Orthodox priest and professor making accessible the beauty and compelling theotic reality of the Eucharist for life in American culture.

The Great Bridge, by David McCullough – gritty story of genius and corrupt New York characters building the enduring Brooklyn Bridge. A great tale of greatness in early American civilization.

Bonus: The Evening and the Morning, by Ken Follett – I love these tales of cathedrals, the loving attention to detail of the structures, the history, and the people who you grow to admire, root for, and hate. This prequel was unexpected, and a pure delight.

For the final set of the top thirty:

Wouldn’t Take Nothing For My Journey Now, by Maya Angelou

+The Enneagram: A Christian Perspective, Richard Rohr

+The Wisdom of the Enneagram, by Russ Hudson and Don Riso

+Mortal Beauty, God’s Grace, poems by Gerard Manley Hopkins

Mother Jones, by Judith Pinkerton Josephson

+Strength to Love, by MLKJr

+Voices, by Dietrich Bonhoeffer

A Spirituality of Fundraising, by Henri Nouwen

*From Beiruit To Jerusalem, by Thomas Friedman

*Jerusalem: A Biography, by Simon Sebag Montefiore

Bonus: Faith for Living, by Lewis Mumford

Other Books I Enjoyed Reading in 2020:

*Social Ethics and the Return to Cosmology: A Study of Gibson Winter by Moni McIntyre

*From Land to Lands, by Munther Isaac

+I Saw Satan Fall Like Lightening, by Rene Girard

*Love Does, by Bob Goff

+What Are People For, by Wendell Berry

Militia Christi, by Adolf Von Harnack

*Faith on Earth, by H. Richard Niebuhr

*Hermeneutics and Criticism, by Friedrich Schleiermacher

In The Name of Sanity, by Lewis Mumford

*Reason for Being, by Jacques Ellul

The Christian Intellectual; Fools for Christ, by Jaroslav Pelikan

*Character of Community, by Stanley Hauerwas

*Social Sources of Denominations; The Irony of American History, by Reinhold Niebuhr

*Political Order and Political Decay, by Francis Fukuyama

*The Fire This Time, by Jesmyn Ward

*Gilkey on Tillich; *Naming the Whirlwind, by Langdon Gilkey

*Sacred Rhythms, by Ruth Haley Barton

+Seasons of Life; +Guilt and Grace; +The Healing of Persons, by Dr. Paul Tournier

What We Talk About When We Talk About God; Drops Like Stars, by Rob Bell

*Spirituality, a Very Short Introduction, by Philip Sheldrake

Canoeing the Mountains, by Tod Bolsinger

*Cost of Discipleship, by Dietrich Bonhoeffer

*Manifesto of the Communist Party, by Karl Marx and Friedrich Engels

+The Divine Hours: Autumn Edition & Christmastide, by Phyllis Tickle

+Works of Love, by Soren Kierkegaard

FICTION

Troubled Blood, by Robert Galbraith

*Pillars of the Earth, by Ken Follett

a dozen Jack Reacher novels, by Lee Childs

a half-dozen Sherlock Holmes short stories, by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

*The Name of the Rose, by Umberto Eco

*1984, by George Orwell

*The Brothers Karamazov, by Fyodor Doestevsky

Blessed Are You: When You Don’t Get What You Want

We don’t even know what our desire is. We ask other people to tell us our desires. We would like our desires to come from our deepest selves, our personal depths – but if it did, it would not be desire. Desire is always for something we feel we lack.” ~René Girard

The pandemic has revealed many different paradoxes about our society, our families, our communities, our values, and our desires. At the core of this COVID-19 confusion are frustrated desires for life, liberty, and happiness. For many of us, the coronavirus is magnifying reality: we never get all that we want.

People are social beings, we get our desires from others – first from our parents and immediate family, and then extended family, friends, commercials, classmates, social media, literature, films, and art, neighbors, coworkers: basically our culture.

Our desires are never truly fulfilled, we always feel a lack. Life is a paradox – you desire based on what others desire in your culture, but you personally pay the price for trying to fulfill them.

The pandemic is fueling our anxiety around this existential question: how can we be blessed and happy when so many of our desires are unfulfilled?

Especially if we’re facing a frustrating disruption to our children’s education and well-being, our jobs and economic stability, or worst of all infection and the fear of death.

But amidst all the anxiety and uncertainty that the pandemic has increased, amidst all the thwarted desires and plans we were striving to fulfill, there have been many heart-warming stories of personal sacrifices, of hero’s stepping forward, of people letting their light shine, of families making the most of it, of seeing the best of humanity emerging towards those who are suffering.

It’s an interesting paradox – the best of times can bring out the worst in people, and the worst of times can bring out the best in people.

It’s almost as if the “worst times” is the default setting for humanity, but we deeply yearn for “the best of times.”

If one were cynical, it would seem that out of the billions of people on our planet, too many are stuck in the worst of times, and too few are getting to enjoy the best of times.

What to do when it feels like you are getting stuck in the “worst of times”?

For Jesus of Nazareth walking the length and breadth of Israel in the first century, most of the citizens were stuck in the worst of times.

They floundered under the cruel paranoia of King Herod, the local authority who rebuilt the beautiful temple and had an eye for urban architectural design but was bloodthirsty and evil towards his own people.

On top of these injustices was the oppressive Roman Empire which sought to tamp down the violence in Israel, a stubborn people unwilling to quietly accept the blasphemies and corruption of the Caesars.

The common folks were dying of malnutrition, of untreated diseases, of trauma, of economic exploitation, of unfair justice, of hopelessness.

The entrenched political and religious oligarchies were insulated from the misery of the people – though they sought to find ways to speak for them and drain away the violent repercussions of mass poverty so the government wouldn’t take away their privileged positions.

It’s in this pandemic of terrifying imperial and royal authoritarianism that Jesus arrives to be with the people of Israel. He brings real healing and hope, speaking subversive truth and grace. Christ Jesus reconnects them to their living God, the one who brought them out of Egypt and into the Promised Land, their God who created them to be a blessing to the world.

Jesus arrived to teach them his people how to participate in the kingdom of God even while they are subjected to the politics of injustice.

What Jesus is revealing to us comes across as a series of paradoxes amidst our thwarted desires. They are guideposts to us on how God keeps his promises to his conflicted people, and how to be God’s people while immersed in the politics of whatever authority and government happen to be in power.

Jesus is teaching those who will listen to him how to be blessed by God while in the worst of times.

He knows that for many people, most of their life will be marked by the tragedies and injustices of the world.

For them and us: when we can’t stop the worst of times from coming, how to find happiness, hope, a way to experience God and his goodness?

We all know that anger, vengeance, bitterness, hatred easily take root in us, our desires become full of darkness and rage, or despair and violence when we are pressed down and oppressed lacking hope of rescue.

While it’s natural, it’s also destructive to ourselves and others. What’s another way?

The Beatitudes are a realistic assessment of how God blesses his people, how he is with them, and for them, in this paradox-full world of the best of times and the worst of times.

We desire to be blessed. And at our best, we desire to be a blessing. Jesus teaches us how to be blessed and to be a blessing when we are poor and mourn when we are oppressed and hungry when we are treated unmercifully and violently when we are full of impure thoughts and persecuted for striving to live God’s way in the world.

In February 2020 I traveled through parts of the Holy Land with a group of YMCA leaders as part of our OnPrinciples program. In learning how to strengthen the presence of Christ in our Y, we spent time where Christ had been present, taught, and blessed.

It was hard to complain when we visited the Mount of Beatitudes. Yet I found myself frustrated that instead of it being a beautifully warm and sunny morning in which to soak up the glory of this historic and sacred place, it was cold, rainy, foggy, and very crowded by the time we left.

My desire for a particular kind of experience was thwarted; I wasn’t getting the full amount of what I wanted.

What to do? Remember why I am there, how much grace was part of my even being there, what kind of privilege and blessing it was to be there, and what it meant to be in a place where Jesus had been present. For all we know it had been rainy, cold, foggy and miserable when he taught the Beatitudes!

I learned while in the Holy Land that the desires there are complicated, that there are many, many paradoxes, and too often the striving for being blessed leads to violence.

The need for Christians to heed this sermon is more paramount than ever.

Below are the gospel text, some pictures and brief reflections of my time at the Mount of Beatitudes:

Now when Jesus saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down.

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Mid-morning view of the Beatitudes mountainside sloping down to the fog-covered Sea of Galilee.

His disciples came to him, and he began to teach them.

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OnPrinciple group gathered for a lesson, escaping the cold drizzle under a canopy in front of the Church of the Beatitudes

Jesus said:

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for justice, for they will be filled.

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Traveling through the wilderness on way to the Mount of Beatitudes; with a view of date tree farms and the Judean hills. I reflected on the lives of Palestinian Christians who eke out an existence in this stretch of the Holy Land, a minority within a persecuted people group. Their meditation on the Beatitudes takes on a rugged necessity that I can’t relate to. 

Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of justice, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

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An old abandoned and graffitied tank at a rest stop in the Judean wilderness on way to Mount of Beatitudes. The Holy Land in the past twelve decades has known only escalating violence in an effort to fulfill their desire to abide in the Promised Land. In their pursuit of being blessed by God there has been too much bloodshed. Surely the Beatitudes do not condone these tactics?

“Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

“You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.

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Back portico of the Church of the Beatitudes, facing the mountainside that slopes down to the lake; OnPrinciple leaders Eric and Mike giving a hearty blessing. The interior chapel was jammed wall to wall with pilgrims from around the world seeking to kneel and pray where Jesus sat and taught us how to be blessed. The desire is strong in all of us.

You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.         [Jesus of Nazareth, the Gospel According to Matthew, 5.1-16, NIV]

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Entrance to the Church of the Beatitudes, with the faithful gathered in the rain, waiting to pray within.

The ongoing violence in the Holy Land is at odds with the kingdom of God revealed in the Beatitudes.

Christians in Israel and Palestine face a brutal reality – how to survive, how to be blessed by God, how to be salt and light, how to follow the teachings of Christ Jesus in the Beatitudes amidst the complex, roiling desires for justice, security, peace, prosperity, and God’s will?

Christians in the West are not immune to this brutal reality – it’s our brothers and sisters who suffer in spirit, mind and body. The persecuted Body of Christ there, of which we fully belong, must endure this violence according to the Beatitudes.

And, for Christians that are not in the minority, we must face the brutal truth – are we, in any way, propping up violent forms of politics and economics that oppose the Beatitudes?

If so, we must first face the truth, and lament this reality. Then we can begin to learn from our fellow Christians in the Holy Land on how to be blessed when you don’t get what you want.

Discovering Your Enneagram Type in Pandemic-time

With the extra time at home, to yourself, with your family, you are given some opportunities to reflect on your self in this pandemic-time.

Socrates once noted that self-understanding was a vital starting point for making sense of the world. This ancient wisdom is still true today, especially amidst our busy, fast-paced, quickly changing environment radically altered by the quarantine.

The Enneagram can be a helpful tool for Christian spiritual formation, whether it be a calm season or a crazy one. It can help you identify what motivates you in engaging the world around you, God, and yourself.

Some friends recommended the above-embedded video by LeeAnn & Michelle, a humorous overview of how each of the typical 9 Enneagram types might be reacting to the quarantine stay-at-home orders.

As you watch it, don’t be looking for exact identification, but consider which of them seems to resonate with you. There is no right or wrong type, no better or worse, there’s just you and how you relate to people and situations.

If you find this helpful, leave a comment below on which type you identified with and why!